"Grace to put it simply is unconditional love. Grace moves in to accept others as they are, without the condition that they change and with a willingness to engage as far as it is possible."
I need it.
I don't know how to receive it. Without grace, love is so conditional something that must be earned constantly. Sought out with every action, every word. Like an addiction that consumes your sheer thoughts. Without grace, love is the exact opposite, it is un-love. Un-love drives you deeper into self-loathing and hate. Un-love makes you feel worthless and anxious. It makes questions dance tempestuously in your head. "Would you love me if I wasn't striving to meet your expectations and fulfill your needs?" Without grace, you never can feel secure in your relationships, you feel as if at any time the closest people in your life could abandon you if you stop working so hard. Without grace, you can't set boundaries. Love is like a fire, you want it's warmth, but you always get to close and get burned. Without grace, love is a slave driver with no mercy, solitude its own form of punishment. Without grace, a person can never experience real love, the sustaining kind, the kind that brings peace.
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